Note: this was also posted in the Mom Blog
I’ve been MIA from this blog for awhile now, and I have no excuses except that life just happens sometimes, doesn’t it? At the end of the night, I find myself uninterested in television (which is a huge change for a TV addict like me) and more interested in cuddling up in bed, studying the backs of my eyelids.
And it’s not that I’m doing anything differently now than before. I’ve been a working, dating (yes, this single mama found a lovely companion) mom for quite some time now. Sure, the monster is growing like a weed, trying new things and continuously babbling along as he discovers his world. But he’s needed constant attention since the day he was born. Dare I say: I’m used to being a mom by now — its ups and downs and roundabouts make my world wonderful.
What I’m not used to is this ditzy, forgetful Mommy Brain I seem to have lapsed into. When I was pregnant, it was occasional. I wouldn’t be able to remember what I had for breakfast, or I’d trip over my own enlarged feet. Caring for a newborn made it a little more serious, but mostly because of the lack of sleep — who can remember to eat dinner when you’re having to keep track of how many hours it’s been since your kid has eaten or pooped?
These days, though, it’s more like a permanent disorder. It’s become part of me. Every morning, I run back into my apartment to make sure I unplugged my flat iron — because I’ve accidentally left it plugged in three times now and freak out at the thought of doing it again.
I sleep in when I shouldn’t, and even missed a meeting yesterday. I caused the monster to bite his own tongue because I accidentally knocked him over with my behind, clumsily trying to stand up. I can’t concentrate enough to write a blog post.
So life happens, and my Mommy Brain makes it even more exhausting. And while I’m happy as a clam and proud of what my life currently is — I’m even planning a trip to Hawaii next month! — I’m sort of a scatterbrained klutz at the moment.
Should I just accept the fact that this is here to stay, and that I’m officially part of the Mommy Brain club now? Say it isn’t so …